Wishing For Bridesmaids
A lot of people make a large group of close friends in middle school and high school. Those same people often go to college and make more close friends. They join sororities and fraternities. They even meet people at random parties that one day become bridesmaids or groomsmen in their weddings. They are able to make best friends the first day at a new job. I have never been one of those people. I never put myself out there or put much effort into making teams or doing sports. I was scared of failure and rejection. There was also a huge secret holding me back. I remember being a small child having crushes on female teachers and famous actresses. I thought my obsessions with different women were normal. However, all of my friends were obsessed with The Backstreet Boys and NSYNC. In 10th grade, I realized all of this meant I was gay. I finally got the answer to why I was different than the other girls in school. However, this answer to who I was didn’t make my life any ea...